| heart beat racing
the taste of fear in my mouth
i don't want to loose you
i don't want to be stuck in your memory.
wow. liffe... i never thought i could enjoy it.
uhm... wow. im sober.. one whole year.
fucking ccrazzzzyyy baby. i miss him && i don't care if he knows.
in fact i called him,
he answered.
we talked for maybe 7 minuets... thats fine with me.
i miss the sound of his voice already.
he says he'll call.
i know he won't.
my hopes are uppppp!
lie, iim trusting my gut on this one.
god, he's beautiful. |
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| through out it all did you ever stop to say thankyou?
did you look up and apoligize?
"oh no i forgot?"
whats there to forget!?
"the beautiful trees"
the perfect pond!
"the light blue sky"
and the crystal white snow flakes on the ground.
throughout your journey you never once -
"but of course i was blest with a wonderful family and the list goes on and on you see... but i also cheated and lied.
and stole from under your nose. oh hate me all you want... i don't give a -"
shhhhh silence! take some time out to be perfectly honest.
and say a paryer for me. if you will...
1/17/07 |
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| so im crazy. it's been declared. ive cried and ive cried until i cried myself sober. almost a whole year. so whats new with me? what news with you... for some reason my thoughts let go on here. i can be myself on here. by here i mean this page. it sets me free. i know your reading this... and its okay because i already know im crazy. |
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